In the time it took me to drink an entire bottle of champagne then jolt awake at 4:45am I went from relieved the application/interview/hiring process was over and brimming with ideas to inspire and educate 30 young minds to terrified with the prospect of not having even the slightest idea as to what I was getting into and what I am supposed to do.
So what is a new teacher feeling with just over one week before school starts?
- Nauseated (then again, see champagne contribution above)
- Embarrassed (what if someone finds out I'm clueless?)
- Duplicitous (did I lie when I said I could do this?)
Part of it is the fact that I don't know yet what grade I'll be teaching. Probably 4th, but maybe 2nd or 3rd? Since I don't know the grade level no one knew what room I would be in. I think I will feel much better, more confident and prepared, once I'm standing in our classroom with specific students to plan for.
Do teachers throw up on the first day of school?